You've been in there for a while. \n\nYou knock on her door, and on the third knock hear her voice call from further in the apartment to come on in. "// he rests one of his enormous hands on your shoulder. She takes the bait, and the topic is successfully changed.\n\nA feel of unease lingers, and your stress levels stay high until she leaves a bit later. "//\n\n//"Sometimes, kind of. This really didn't help.\n\n[[Next.|weshouldTalk]]\n\n<>

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<>\n//"Oh, I'm asking for a raise soon. I can't do this anymore..."// she says, though it doesn't feel real. A myriad of feelings is boiling inside you - which one do you listen to?\n\nWhat do you do?\n\n1: Sway her opinion and come back from this as a couple, stronger than ever.\n[[2: End this. You cup her face in your hands and kiss her, and mentally vow that you are not going to stop living because you have a mental illness. Depression Quest is an interactive fiction game where you play as someone living with depression. I'm sorry. It's from Amanda, and you remember your meeting in the cafe and awkwardly bringing up your feelings to her.\n\n//Subj: Hey buddy\nBody: Hey. She offers to get the number for you. I just..."// She looks at your face, seemingly searching. \n\nYou retreat to bed with a renewed calm after venting a little and being cheered up by your friend, and manage to not lose TOO much sleep that night.\n\n[[Next.|placeholder]], <><>
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<>\n<><>\nThe mere mention of medication makes you stiffen uneasily. \n<>\nYou realize that you're being irrational, and should try and pull your head out of these thoughts lest they pull you under their current and ruin the night. I think it's something I just have to live with. You //want// to be able to explain to her how you've been feeling, but the truth is you're not really sure yourself. \n\n, <><>
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<>\n//"Actually..."// you start sheepishly, //"I'm not really sure what I want to do right now. \n\nIt was far from how you would have chosen to spend your afternoon, but at least you still have your job.\n\n[[Next.|placeholder]]<>While it feels good to finally spill your guts, as it were, you worry about having overstepped your bounds and try and rein things back in in an attempt to help save your job. There is no neat resolution to depression, and it was important to us that //Depression Quest's// own resolution reflect that. Tell her you don't think it's a good idea for you right now.|dontmoveIn]]\n[[3. We really want to thank you for taking the time to play //Depression Quest//.

The U.S. fleet in 2020 possesses 56 Los Angeles-, Seawolf- and Virginia-class attack submarines and Ohio-class cruise-missile submarines plus 14 Ohio-class boomers. \n\n//"So how can I help? You were worried she wanted to spend less time with you, not more. Reach out to someone close to you. WHY DID YOU DO THAT?" You open your mouth to answer, but no words come out. Her loss hit you hard and snapped you into reality; you've been taking her advice and pushing yourself outside of your comfort zone lately. Your constant complaints that your pills "don't work" ring hollow even in your own ears; you knew all along that there was never going to be a 'miracle cure,' and it seems like your seemingly irresponsible lack of active involvement has caught up with you.\n<>\nPouring over the events of the past few months is, even now, exhausting and defeating. This is..."// she seems taken completely off guard. It feels as though you're reading someone's unfiltered mental diary. You wonder if you're really fooling anyone into thinking you're a normal person, and then you wonder if your brother knows and is hanging out with you out of pity tonight.\n\nAfter he drops you back off at your apartment, you throw the night guard out. The dam breaks, and you find yourself trying to explain your situation to your boss. You try to pick her reply apart in your mind, and all of your conclusions lead to your previous worry - that you're holding her back. I can't do this anymore. Break things off, for you.<>[[3: You're having difficulty managing the relationship and your personal life. You couldn't see a resolution where attempting those things would work, and you needed a moment of space instead.\n\nYou hear a knock on the door. You can't stop replaying the failures you made with her over and over in your head, wondering what could've been if you weren't such a fuckup. She even manages to entertain at the same time. At this point, losing your job is not only a real possibility, it's downright probable.\n\nYour personal relationships have deteriorated as well. Things get a little awkward, and eventually the two of you decide to stop for the night.<>you're having problems getting physically aroused. She watches you intently and audibly sighs before you can clearly articulate anything. \n\nAs you leave, you make a second appointment. You've never meant to hurt her, and you are torn up that you've caused her pain. You try to disguise this by tilting your head up and praying that they'll suck back in.\n\nShe suggests that you two get out of there, and you feel mortified. Trying to hide your struggles with your condition from your partner becomes more and more impossible, and you find that you lack many resources to properly deal with the situations that arise as a result. Your voice sounds so weak you doubt anyone present believes you, least of all yourself.\n\n[[Epilogue.|Epilogue]]\n\n

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<>\n\nYou make a stop at your fridge, turn your favorite playlist on, and sit down to start working. You withdraw entirely and<> outside of work your only interaction with another living creature is with your cat.<> outside of work, you don't leave your apartment.<> It's going to take you a long time to get over her, but in the moments that you feel a brief clarity of mind, you feel almost relieved to only have to be responsible for your feelings now.\n\n[[Next.|familyChristmas]]\n\n<>
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<>\n\nIt's late Friday afternoon, and Quitting Time is just around the corner. Sleep is clearly not happening no matter how long you lay here.|tossandTurn]]\n\n<>
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<>\n\n//"Are you okay? You've internalized some of the negative stigmas attached to seeking help for mental health, and you use these as arguments against yourself. "//\n\nIt takes you a moment to process this new information, and you're caught off guard as he begins to earnestly try to sell you on the idea of taking the last kitten off his hands. The side effects have been an annoyance and you are pretty convinced that you no longer need them. You know this job isn't what you want to do for the rest of your life, and you've started actively looking for other positions, even attending a couple of preliminary interviews.\n\nYou've started making effort to go out with your friends more.

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